I am thrilled (excited, daunted, existentially quaked) to have been chosen to join the @bethmorrisonprojects
Producer Academy to work on my fledgling opera “Inside Out”. (link to listen to incubating work samples on SoundCloud in my bio!). The @prototypefest
brought Beth Morrison Projects to my attention and when they announced their Producer Academy, I thought “I have to do this, if they’ll have me.” I have been wanting to start work on the opera for a year or so, and our Covid “lockdown” gave me the opportunity to flesh out some ideas on Logic.
Inside Out juxtaposes popular and operatic vocal styles to portray the potential emotional outbursts of abuse victims, especially women. The opera is meant to give victims a new story that empowers them. The characters access emotions that are more functional when they immediately voice their fears, shown parallel to their instinctive freeze state. We will see the abuse victims step out of their paralysis with the visceral sound of “screaming” in their own defense. The scream will be their singing in an operatic style while using method acting to access the true affect within the sound. I believe that writing vocal lines that range from popular to operatic style will allow the characters to have a more powerful expression of emotion.
The performance is not meant to shame abuse victims for going into freeze states, which are perfectly natural responses to abuse, but to help abuse victims process their fear in a way that provides catharsis and perspective. They will find more effective mastery of the scenes in their real life, accessing emotions that will be more functional in those situations. I hope they may find themselves feeling less threatened. I was a victim of emotional and physical abuse, and I was dumbfounded at how long I stayed in the relationship. I was too frightened to respond. I want this piece to help me and other abuse victims feel validated, knowing they can draw a boundary with the abuser, and making it easier for them to leave the dangerous situation.